Mush

You've  been warned by the title that this post will be mushy.  So, I'll try to keep it short.  But, I may have already lost you...and I wouldn't blame you.  I often skim other's posts like this :)

But, as this serves as my only journal (sad, but true), I want to express my love for the hubs and say where we're at. 

We decided our gift would be going out to dinner.  We're going out tomorrow since Wednesdays are his day off.  It will be our first time leaving Carter at home.  I'm excited.  I hope I can remember how to put makeup on--haha! But, just like last year--even though we agreed to not get each other anything, Mr. Thoughtful still got me something!  A cook book full of peanut butter recipes.  He knows me so well!  I thought the giant kitkat I got him was going to be a great surprise, but he bested me.  Which I'm OK with :) 

He also just got me a black pencil skirt for no reason a few weeks ago.  He said he knew I had been wanting one for awhile and that I wouldn't get it for myself (I'm terrible at buying things for myself) so he figured he'd just do it.  Seriously?  How is he even for real?  

I love that just two nights ago we were giggling in bed.  We've been married 4 years, and we can still stay up just laughing in bed until we're crying.  And, just a day before that, when we heard Whitney Houston had passed away, we stayed up late watching all of her music videos and telling each other the memories we had of her growing up.  We sat and sang along and just laughed.  

I keep thinking that we need to go to bed early because Carter does his best sleeping stretch from like 8-3.  But, I just can't be OK not spending much time with Claudy.  We always stay up way too late talking, but I figure it's worth the sleep deprivation.  I just feel bad because I can nap the next day, and there he is, working AND going to school full time.  

I drink in whenever I learn something new about Claudy.  I love learning more about him, and it never gets old.  I love talking to him, and constantly text him while he's at work and school.  He's the first person I want to tell when anything happens and I hope this will always be the case.

I wish I could truly make him understand that I don't need anything.  Everything he's done for me in the past year is more than enough Vday gifts for a lifetime.  Making dinner, mopping, doing wash, grocery shopping and tending to me during my pregnancy meant so much.  Giving me my beautiful son and supporting my decision to stay home with him means so much.  

When I think of all that Claudy has been through in his life, and how he still loves unconditionally and fully it leaves me in awe.  I know I can't make up for it, but I will always try.  I hope that I can help him have a wonderful, happy and love filled life.  He deserves that and so much more for the good person he is.

I feel like what we have is so special, and I recognize how blessed I am to have such a wonderful partner in crime.  I thank God constantly for Claudy.

(Image is a painting of Claudy done a few years ago by one of his friends)